Anger Management

KENAPA SEHHH GW MARAH2 MULU??? CAPE TAUKKKKK!! Tapi tetep aja gw marah2! Apa gara2 gw duduk di sebelah org yg marah2? Kayanya sih yg satunya juga sebenernya suka marah2;P. Gw ngerasa dulu gw gak gampang marah seperti sekarang. Walopun bakat2 galak jelas gw punya sebenernya, mengingat waktu kecil kalo marah gw suka banting pintu sekeras2nya trus ngelempar semua barang yg ada di deket gw. Cuman, rasa2nya bakat itu trus berhenti berkembang sejak gw jadi diam (wkt kecil gw cerewet anaknya! Believe it or not), palingan ngambek :P. Apalagi pas gw udah kuliah di Bandung. Abis adem2 aja sih suasananya. Apalagi di Groningen, waaaahhhhh kayanya gak pernah secuilpun deh gw marah2 (aduh gw kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeennn banget), paling kesel2 aja ama org2 tertentu yg usil mulutnya. Problem utama gw di sana sih sedih karna kangen keluarga dan temen2 di Indonesia (orang Londo gak gampang dideketin, waloupun mreka sopan2). Gimana caranya gw ngedapetin kesabaran gw kembali ya? (Liat aja tu di testimonial, tmn gw bilang gw sabar dan...yah, lempeng tentunya)

Banyak hal dalam hidup gw sekarang ini yg emang bikin gw marah. Mungkin kemarahan itu udah gw pendem2 juga sejak gw balik ke Jakarta siaul ini.
I am angry because I am stuck in this polluted, artificial, overcrowded, corrupted, chaotic city.
I am angry because everyday I have to be in traffic jam with thousands of stupid and impolite drivers for more than 1 hour just to get to the office.
I am angry because my bosses suck.
I am angry because my job is to fool people.
I am angry because I am too chicken to give up my job to try something new and really doing this world some good, like becoming a teacher for kindergarten children, for example.
I am angry because I haven't been able to be a children book illustrator.
I am angry because the people who rule this country are liar, egoistic megalomaniac people.
I am angry because I am an antisocial who cares very little about people in general.
I am angry because I am doing 5 times prayers just for the sake of obligations.
I am angry because I think negatively about people without trying to get to know them better.
I am angry because I am not a good listener anymore.
I am angry because almost nobody here cares about education for everyone.
I am angry because the poor are getting poorer.
I am angry because of the hypocrisy from religious leaders.
I am angry because I have missed my marriage target :(.
I am angry because I am too chicken, again.
I am angry because I'M ALWAYS ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want my old me back....