Love Crap/b

Inspired again by Anita (she's such an inspiration!!;)). contrary to her i think i am addicted to love n romance n stuff, but when it comes to practice i simply SUCK. such a crap in it!!! help!!

i want to love and be loved, n have got both, but i think they should be well combined and not go separately, shouldn't they??
i love those who i don't suppose to (n who doesn't return it, those LOOSERS!!). and i am too scared and too prideful to do anything about it.
i can't love back those who loves me, and i can't turned 'em down with no hurts, and i can't keep my friendship with 'em.

Oh! ouououohhh!! just look the last time i met my X. he didn't even wanna look at me. didn't talk to me. why?? what did i do wrong??? if i couldn't love it's not fair to go on with it rite??

But ohhh!! ououououoooooohhhh!! and look when i start to feel rejected!! i just...don't wanna look n talk at all. too scared n prideful, haven't i mentioned before?

Gw liat n denger tuh infotainments, majalah, radio, novel, obrolan. kawin, cerai, selingkuh, ngelaba, ngegebet, jadian, nembak, ML. ringan-ringan aja kan? why can't i?? kalo jadian kan:
1. karena kau cinta
2. bertujuan untuk merit, yg buat seumur idup!

Humm..mungkin jadian utk penjajakan. tp stl 2x gagal, gw merasa gak sanggup lg utk go through with it again bila gak melibatkan 2 hal di atas.

As a Cancer Crab i do have this ambition: to get happily married and start a happy family of my own. that is one ambition that i am so scared not being able to achieve it!!!

Maybe these lyrics DO describe me perfectly:

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law

-One (U2)